Family

i have not said about my family yet.
i think this family is not good now...

everyone says [YOU SHOULD LOVE YOUR FAMILY]

but its really hard for me now... im really sorry.
dad is a hard worker,but drinks too much every night and loves my sis so much.i know he had an affair .
mum is not shy at all,but give me bad words when she feel bad.
one of my sis dont take classes in school, not kind to me and mean.and she is mentally untable.
the other sis is sometimes not kind, but good.

and i cry and get my feelings lonely easily.

in October, i really wanted to leave here.
and Now... i dont know what to do. i know i should love them. but i can lose my dream. i am not the girl that my parents want me to be.

i know i have to say im sorry manytimes.